Day 7 #trust30 - 2006/2016

There will be an agreement in whatever variety of actions, so they be each honest and natural in their hour. – Ralph Waldo Emerson

What would you say to the person you were five years ago? What will you say to the person you’ll be in five years?

(Author: Corbett Barr)

2006:

Get up, get out and get over yourself. Even though I know you can't you must. You must move on. You must let go. You must walk out of that door and not look back. There are many people trying to drag you down but you know that you can't be beaten. You may be bruised and have scars to prove the battles you have fought, but the real scars that you need to work on are inside you still. They will not heal until you give them the attention they deserve. Don't wait as long as I did. Seize the day. Use the time you have now that you spend inside, alone, sad, lonesome, unloved. Learn to feel happy, loved and a friend to yourself. You are never truly alone. You are never truly unloved. Everything is connected. You can feel it in your blood and your soul, which is why these battles are so painful to wage, for you are only fighting yourself in other forms. Until you stop fighting yourself, these battles will be forever present. When you accept yourself and everything then the battles will disappear. This does not happen quickly and still hasn't happened, but you're on your way to understanding this more. You feel it in each breath, each sigh, each smile. 

I know you won't do any better than I did or I wouldn't be where you are now. So don't beat yourself up about it. Accept your karma as your dharma. There is a rhyme and reason for everything, you just don't know it yet.

There is much good to come. When the healing begins, so does life. Things you never thought possible come into your life at times when you least expect it. Just don't forget how precious life is because a horrific lesson will make you realize that the harm you have done was no intended, just misguided love. Embrace others, faults and all for none of us are perfect and when our time together is gone we miss all those imperfections more.

Tell your family and friends you love them, and most of all yourself.

2016:

You have achieved more than you dreamed you could, but you still haven't reached your goal - because there isn't one! You're living instead of planning. You're loving instead of dreaming, you're peaceful instead of wandering. You've seen trouble, you've seen misery, but nothing you couldn't handle now that you understand this is the song of life sometimes played in a minor key. I know you kept up with the practices that keep you wise and connected for they are not practices that are easy to let go of once they are in your blood. I'm sad it took so long to integrate them fully into life, but no practice can be rushed.  People have come and gone, but your core are still around you and your smile is ever present. Who says dreams don't come true?