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Showing posts with label plans. Show all posts
Showing posts with label plans. Show all posts

Monday, June 6, 2011

Day 6 #trust30 - Screenwriting

Our arts, our occupations, our marriages, our religion, we have not chosen, but society has chosen for us. We are parlour soldiers. We shun the rugged battle of fate, where strength is born. – Ralph Waldo Emerson
“Next to Resistance, rational thought is the artist or entrepreneurs worst enemy. Bad things happen when we employ rational thought, because rational thought comes from the ego. Instead, we want to work from the Self, that is, from instinct and intuition, from the unconscious.
A child has no trouble believing the unbelievable, nor does the genius or the madman. Its only you and I, with our big brains and our tiny hearts, who doubt and overthink and hesitate.” - Steven Pressfield, Do the Work
The idea of “being realistic” holds all of us back. From starting a business or quitting a job to dating someone who may not be our type or moving to a new place – getting “real” often means putting your dreams on hold.
Today, let’s take a step away from rational thought and dare to be bold. What’s one thing you’ve always wanted to accomplish but have been afraid to pursue? Write it down. Also write down the obstacles in your way of reaching your goal. Finally, write down a tangible plan to overcome each obstacle.
The only thing left is to, you know, actually go make it happen. What are you waiting for?
(Author: Matt Cheuvront)


I've always wanted to send one of my feature film scripts to agents for production.

Standing in my way is:


  • Several scripts in revision stage that I have not continued working on recently.
  • My fear of success.
  • My fear of failure.
  • My fear that I will be too attached to the script and not want it to be butchered by a re-write by someone else or a bad director.
  • My attachment to my stories and characters
  • The time I have to finish the scripts.
  • Wanting to send it out now even though they are not ready.
  • My lack of networking skills.
  • Not getting paid to write for a living yet.
  • Questions in my mind about how I should go about doing it rather than just trying different approaches and seeing what happens.
  • Not being willing to use the contacts I have to progress even though I would happily help someone in the same position if I had an in.

Plan:

  • Start working on a feature script once Nanowrimo for the summer is over.
  • Research all the different ways I can send scripts to agents, using all the documentation I have saved and downloaded over the last months.
  • Give my script out to those who know how to read a script and ask for feedback or join a screenwriting group that I trust.
  • Decide who my feature would suit before sending it out in a cold query.
  • Enter the script into festivals.
  • Copyright my work.
  • Start asking friends who they work for and if they know anyone who knows anyone who could pass on my script. Maybe do this in return for a favor for them so that they don't feel totally used and abused by me.
  • Work harder to get paid for writing articles (as you already know you can hint hint!)
  • Start working out how I can best network and how I could feel comfortable doing this.
  • Meditate on my fear of success and failure.
  • Ask myself what would happen if I did succeed/ fail...what would my next steps be?
  • Pick a script that I feel is most marketable and work on that one first.
  • Pitch the script to film friends and ask them which one they would be most interested in seeing/ making etc.
  • Use the time i have left here in Oman to FINISH (or at least try and finish) revisions on a feature. Don't waste it away on blogging challenges like this one (which is great, but which takes away from screenwriting).
  • Meditate on giving away my script and watching it go nowhere. 
  • Meditate on non-attachment to my work.

I shouldn't be waiting for anything, but I'm waiting until mid-July I reckon.

That's my goal for now.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

#reverb10 - December 16th

Prompt: Friendship. How has a friend changed you or your perspective on the world this year? Was this change gradual, or a sudden burst?


Many things have happened in the last year and a half that have prompted me to further consider how much I hold onto the past for happiness.  The past is past, however, so I should really only be expecting it to bring me wisdom (I would hope!).
This point was brought even further into perspective when my 'best friend ever' told me that she was going on a holiday that we had planned to do together, with her sisters and a friend of hers from back home.  I was devastated.  Truly devastated, especially because she told me only after I found out from reading her sisters' Facebook status.  
Being the friend that I knew her to be she asked me, well intentioned, if she should go.  Great!  I got to be the bad guy or the bad guy.  I was the bad guy for telling her I was upset that she was going on our holiday without me, or the bad guy for telling her she couldn't go.  I guess I could have lied, but we know each other so well that she would never have believed it!
I listened to hours upon hours of podcasts from Gil Frondstal to figure out how to be with what had happened. It helped of course, but I still had to decide how I was going to react.  In no way am I the perfect Buddhist practitioner!
My friend requested that I come on the holiday several times, out of guilt I'm sure, cause it's well know that I'm a teacher and I don't know any teachers who can simply jet off in the middle of a term for a spur of the moment vacation (that was the other thing that bugged me out...we were supposed to plan it together, but our vacation was hijacked and I knew that even if I went it wouldn't be the vacation we would have planned together anyway).
So, I wrote my friend an email (we live half way across the world from each other) telling her how upset I was about the fact that our vacation was not going to include me, but that I wasn't going to tell her she couldn't go. If she wanted to go without me then that was her choice.  I, of course, couldn't resist telling her that if she did go, I would never go on that vacation with her in the future.  It was mean-spirited of me and I'm sure she believes she will convince me to go with her in the future, but I'm a stubborn lady and my mind's made up.
It's not like this was any old vacation - it was a return to the 'homeland' of Malawi after leaving 15 years ago.  A return to a place that lives perfectly in our memories.  A return to the place that changed and bonded us forever in ways that other people we meet will never be able to understand us.  A return to the place that made us into Third Culture Kids.  We were to visit our old houses and travel around for a month visiting all the places we remembered, for we grew up there together - like sisters.
I can't say that my friend is no longer my friend.  That would be ridiculous.  But things have changed for me.  I still love her to death, but I realize that I have to start living my life more for me now than I ever have.  She's enjoying herself doing the things she wants to do, while I've been sitting at home hoping to plan vacations with 'the one person who gets me'.  Yet, this situation has proven to me that I think we've moved on from that.  She no longer gets me the way she used to.  I no longer get her.  If this was the case, she wouldn't have gone on vacation without me and I never would have had to give her my ultimatum.
It's sad, but true.  And it's also a relief in a way.  We have held on to so much responsibility for our friendship for so long now that when we have met up for a vacation together I haven't fully enjoyed it.  We're different people now.  We don't enjoy the same things that we used to.  
I wouldn't say we've grown apart, but friendships change.  It's just hard for us to accept that after not seeing each other for so long and wanting so much for everything to stay the same.
It reminds me of the film 'Beaches', one of my favorite girlie films.  I'm Bette Midler and my friend is Barbara Hershey (actually probably vice versa as well knowing those two in the film).  We just need to continue loving each other, but also allow each other to follow our own souls in the different directions they take us.  I've been holding on to expectations for too long and it has soured me.
I need to open up to new people and experiences.  My old friendship(s) should provide me with the wisdom that helps me to create solid and respectful friendships now and into the future, rather than cause me to close off from possibilities.
I've got to start seeing more in shades of gray rather than my normal black and white.  This doesn't mean I no longer have a best friend.  It just means that what 'best friend' means has changed for me, and it's possible that i will meet someone new (I have already) who becomes what 'best friend' used to mean to me.  It's a little like a death.  But hopefully that death will lead to re-growth and allow for new, more interesting experiences to grow again.  And hopefully it means I can like myself more than I have in the past because of the restrictions I'd placed on myself in order to be the 'best friend' I could be to my friend.  Doing that is not fair to me or my friend.
Hopefully, what I'll take from this situation is a way to be happy now, rather than waiting for circumstances or people to make happiness with later.  Hopefully it means we can be okay with the change in our relationship and take a breather from the pressure it is to stay the same person to somebody for your whole life, even though the only thing that stays the same in this life is the fact that everything changes.
Knowing my friend, she will understand and be thankful that I'm happy now, even if what's making me happy doesn't include her for a while.