UPDATE: Day 3 #trust30 - The Question/ My Biggest Obstacle

UPDATE 6.5.11

"The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing." - Socrates

Having spent the last 48 hours pondering the question I asked myself two days ago, the only answer I can come up with that is honest and that answers my question with integrity is that I don't know how I can solve this problem for myself.

I know that I should keep going down the current path I am on for this has taken me much father than I ever thought I would or could go.

I also understand that I'm asking this question right now because I obviously still have some answers that I need to figure out. I'm not all knowing. I have learned a lot in this l last year that I didn't know before, and I know that I will learn a lot next year that I don't know right now. Therefore, the wisest thing I can do right now is admit that I don't have all the answers, but remain happy to sit in knowledge that as I move forward the answers will no doubt find me when I'm ready to embrace them.

The bravest thing I can do right now is surrender to the mantra "I don't know" and that is what I shall do.

Namaste

6.3.11

That which each can do best, none but his Maker can teach him. Where is the master who could have taught Shakespeare? Where is the master who could have instructed Franklin, or Washington, or Bacon, or Newton? . . . Shakespeare will never be made by the study of Shakespeare. Do that which is assigned you, and you cannot hope too much or dare too much. – Ralph Waldo Emerson

Identify one of your biggest challenges at the moment (ie I don’t feel passionate about my work) and turn it into a question (ie How can I do work I’m passionate about?) Write it on a post-it and put it up on your bathroom mirror or the back of your front door. After 48-hours, journal what answers came up for you and be sure to evaluate them.

Bonus: tweet or blog a photo of your post-it.

(Author: Jenny Blake)

See ya in 48 hours! Hopefully with some answers!

A year from now...

Write a letter to yourself a year from now. What things are happening right now that you won't want yourself to forget?


Hey you!


Well right now you're fighting yourself. You want to write, but many things, such as work, are getting in the way of you having the time and energy to devote to it.


It's not a daily struggle, to be precise, but it's still a sign that the old you and your procrastinating ways haven't fully died yet.


However, I hope you remember how much last year proved that you were finally willing and ready to live your passions. After such a long time misplacing them in areas that you weren't truly interested in, it was great to be living your truth for a change. Do you remember how much energy and creativity you had bursting out of you on a daily basis having finally understood your purpose in this life? I hope that now you are reading this you haven't forgotten, or at least that this post will help you to remember and rekindle those feelings.


I won't tell you that everything in your life was pink and fluffy. Yet, you were definitely living in a more positive era where you were able to look into and reflect on things more deeply in order to understand them and understand your own reactions better.


Your vision of life was still very black and white and often uncompromising, but you were still having an internal struggle with how to deal with situations that would leave you depleted and hurt if you did compromise. I believe that right now you will be steps closer to having solved that problem, at least that's what I would imagine knowing your intent for future practice.


It's funny how you can look back on things and see the leaps and bounds you have taken in the changing while at the time they were really only advances in small baby steps. This is what I hope you remember right now - how important those little baby steps were in you becoming someone you could live with and love and laugh with. It definitely took time to get there, but wasn't the journey worth it?


There is so much wisdom to be gained with age and experience and you've definitely dealt with both of those. I know that 33 will feel pretty much the same as 32 feels right now, but I also know that many things in your life that have been laying dormant for so many years will have blossomed into beautiful flowers that you are able to tend to and nurture into this next phase of your life.


All I would advise is that tenacity is the key. Just keep coming back and striving for whatever values you hold true, no matter the path they take you on. You know the truth at the time and remember the wisdom in this even if your choices turn out to be mistakes.


Keep the flavor and love in your life by remembering all the times you lived your life on pause waiting for the next patch of green grass to make it all better. Why wait for tomorrow what you can live today?


Keep hugging those babies, and like your beautiful second mother Ann once told you:


think deeply
speak gently
love much
laugh a lot
work hard
give freely
and be kind


for death comes to us all in the end, and wouldn't it be great to go out living a life full of grace?


Love ya girl and don't you forget it!